It’s Always Darkest Before The Dawn

Stop showing and see what happens.

Yeah, you might not be wanted anymore. I noticed most of the time when I stop trying, the relationship seems to fizzle out.

It’s okay though.

The in-between parts are what make it feel like it will never be better.

An empty bed.

Your phone staying dark for day.

Quiet.

The last few weeks have taught me more than I can really put into words and I have been very fortunate to be in myself and put out work that I needed to for quite some time. I have grown to realize that it was never truly my fault my marriage or additional relationships/friendships ended.

I was just made to believe that for a very very very long time, by people that wanted what they wanted till it was no longer easy to have it.

I never claimed to be perfect and I know just like many, I have flaw. But knowing the only thing holding the last two relationships I’ve invested myself into together was energy that I continued to give over and over makes it obvious that I deserved so much better.

I wasn’t going to believe that till I seen how obvious it is was when it all stopped.

Because I stopped.

But, my friends, it’s always darkest before the dawn. Things change and it does get better. I promise. For whatever reason someone and/or something can enter your life when you need it the most and we all know no one is ever truly ready. But if you find something or someone that makes you feel alive again. It’s damn worth the risk.