I Know I Can’t Be The Only One

I had made this video a week ago. It still stands, a week later that it’s very hard to not over think being treated good and actually accept the compliment or the support.

It’s marginally difficult to accept being treated well, when your not used to it/haven’t been in a relationship for a while.

It’s even better meeting someone who wants to learn your past to understand HOW you need to be loved; not decide from the beginning how THEY want to love you.

Hands down, a supportive partner can help you in re-wiring parts of the brain that have been made to believe things such as being unworthy of peace and hapiness. They help you see what love wasn’t and that can definitely help with healing.

Healthy is addictive. Healthy helps heal. He is addictive.

The last few days have been rough dealing with some of the behaviors my son has exhibited. But he’s stayed and noted that I can’t shut him out. He’s supportive to me in ways I’m not used to. He is supportive to me in the way I NEED not the way I WANT or the way he WANTS.

This also makes me note that while I may have painted past recent relationships as bad, ugly, dark and cold for hurt I endured; I want to acknowledge that there were moments of good. They just didn’t want to/chose not to learn how to love me HOW I needed to be loved.