Love

To “Love” someone, is to want what is best, despite knowing you may never be loved that same way back. Loving someone and being “In Love” is not the same. Because love is what you do. Not how you feel.

Loving someone isn’t based on a whirlwind of emotions. Whether the person you love is a partner, friend, parent, or child, your strong feelings stem from a deep-rooted attachment rather than heightened passion or infatuation.

After the fantasies and illusions of a relationship begin to fall away with someone (which they do) the relationship will go one of two ways.

That you need their strength and you stay to feel loved. To love them only to be loved as such in return. or it’s possible that what comes into focus is something much better than that. A realistic sustainable love. One that is unconditional.

Because loving someone is long-lasting; even if that person aggravates or disappoints you, or your relationship becomes distant, you'll continue to care about them on some level.

To give and not expect a return. That is what lies the heart of love." - Oscar Wilde

During our time on this earth, we only get a certain amount of moments that will remain with us into an afterlife. I think we only get one true chance to experience loving someone and not expect a return. To unconditionally make the hardships of life better for them.

I have loved twice.

I have loved two men whom walked away from me and I’ve had to grieve and find closure from the loss of that love, in my own way. Both walked away without providing me with any explanation. Without giving me a chance to right wrongs.

To continue to expect to be given all those things means, places conditions in the relationship. Which means I must let them go.

I want both to be happy and know I expect nothing in return. I’m capable of handling the hardships. I don’t need someone to sacrifice for me. I’ve fallen more times than I can count.

I will likely never be loved by someone the way in which in means to unconditionally be loved.

I am unsure I will ever fully come back from that.

But I like to think I’m pretty good at loving.